February 27, 2004

The Saturn Roundabout
Melissa left this morning for Los Angeles. I'm sure that she and fellow Hobbit-fancier Rebecca will have a blast this weekend seeing the sights and attending The One Ring.Net's "Return of the One Party". It'll be a "Bachelor Weekend" at Chez Chris, which usually amounts to me eating Ramen Noodles, staying in my Pajamas until 4pm and having a few beers with Justin and Craig.

As I approach my thirtieth birthday, I have started to take stock of my life. Honestly, I have not been dreading this, since I don't place much import on it. All it means is that Melissa and Craig get to rag on me for a while about entering their demographic category. While I was pondering this today, Browsing the Web totally at random, I came across this article on Astrology, which relates to your 29th year of life. It's called "Saturn Return" (which may be the inspiration for the No Doubt album.

Astrologers call the period between ages twenty-eight and thirty "Saturn Return." That's because it's the first time the planet Saturn completes its cycle through your birth chart and returns to the spot it occupied when you were born. Internationally respected astrologer Rob Hand calls Saturn Return "one of the most important times in your life. . . a time of endings and new beginnings."

I read the page and realized that this rings true in my life. Over the past year, I have not been in a process of self-analysis, but I just seem to be at some decision point in my life. My job is at a crossroads, as to whether I continue as a Programmer or go back to being a Business Analyst. We've been in our house for three years and long to move to a more active area. Even our marriage seems to be on the verge, not of a breakdown, but on a transformation into the next phase. A particular line from this article seems especially true for me:

"Even though your Saturn Return may be disturbing, ultimately it reveals what you truly want and sweeps away the clutter that may have been impeding your progress. Your Saturn Return is a personal spring cleaning. No matter how difficult it seems to let go of inappropriate people and things, the first Saturn Return is the time to do it. For if lessons are not learned, the problems will come knocking again during your second Saturn Return at about age fifty-eight, when you are more set in your ways. Once the conflict is confronted, the tension usually subsides. You feel stronger and more capable of moving ahead."

This IS the time in your life when you start pruning away the things that don't matter, whether it's toxic friendships, bric-a-brac around the house, even activities that you don't get much out of anymore. You decide what in your life is true to your core self, and leave everything else behind. It's sometimes painful, but it forces you to make decisions and to take actions, things which people may have been unconsciously avoiding.

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